A p r o n h e a d -- Lilly Green
I knew you were free,
but
I still mourned.
I wanted you.
I wanted you to
feel pain—
to laugh and cry,
to be held,
to whine,
to bruise the knee,
bruise the spirit,
be comforted—
to be human.
But
your humanity lies in ashes,
part of a hundred trees and bushes
that live,
and you don’t.
You are free to be
with God,
but
I still mourn . . .
At your birth, I cried
when you didn’t.
Makes my heart hurt.
Mine, too . . . still.
The pain comes through in this piece. I feel it. Well done…
Still after so long. Sometimes, I don’t understand why it rises up again after so long, but there it is.
Part of the process, I think. A long process. Not sure that we are ever ‘done’ somehow.
True.
very moving words with a lot of pain
Seems like a lifetime of processing.