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My Book of Uncommon Prayers: These Frail Threads

I don’t want to be naïve again, speech peppered with Praise the Lord’s and God Bless You’s, and other Christian slang, as if by filling in the blanks I could sanctify the moment. I meant well. There are elements I … Continue reading

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Surrender

Surrender feels like failure. It feels depressing, like giving up. There is a darkness to it, a weight to it—the unwilling outmanned, outmaneuvered, surrounded, and pressed to defeat. Surrender feels like exhaustion. It feels compressing, like yielding up the last … Continue reading

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There is a trust . . .

There is in trust a writing between the lines. I trust you, but that trust expects an outcome acceptable to me. My blank slate of surrender has a lot of smudges around the edges—things like “Don’t make it hurt,” “Let … Continue reading

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Reel Faith

Many things you fear come to pass, but most don’t; and since you never know which will or won’t, it makes more sense to fear none. But my Pollyanna is more my Puddleglum, and my optimism quotient is tempered by … Continue reading

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Asking you, asking me . . .

Does your faith-life even require Jesus? Got the maxims memorized. Got the rules down. Is religion more your bulwark than relationship— behavior and image more important than face-falling service, open-hearted devotion to His worthiness? Has purpose surpassed person? Maybe it’s … Continue reading

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A Limping Life

I heard your whisper in the wind, and I leaned to listen; but my lisping voice rose rough and rasping, replaying all the shame moments, the named moments—over and over, owning their bite. I glimpsed your face in the greening … Continue reading

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The Daily Post: Renewal with a Hitch

Renewal always sounds bright and shiny, like a beautifully restored vintage car or a vibrant blossom in the spring bursting from what had looked like a lifeless branch. But the problem with renewal is that something has decayed in order … Continue reading

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My Book of Uncommon Prayers: Pain and Hope

  I woke suddenly in the wee hours, the dark hours. Was it the weird dream I was having? Maybe. But aside from that, I immediately was aware that I had passed the anniversary of my first child’s death and … Continue reading

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I Wonder

Do you ever wonder about all those people you have crossed paths with, crossed wills with, and do you ever wonder what it will be like to spend eternity with them—those who pressed all your wrong buttons and abused your … Continue reading

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For Something More

I woke early in the dark and cold with only red numbers projected on the ceiling, confirming that yes, it is early, and yes, it is still dark 04 hundred. I lie here awake. The pain has been my alarm, … Continue reading

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