Tag Archives: struggle

My Record of Wrongs

Posted on May 30, 2022 by apronheadlilly

I kept diaries off and on as a kid, chronicling important stuff like supper menus, sibling squabbles, and crazy crushes; but it wasn’t until I began to travel and sing full time that I started journaling in earnest. Over the … Continue reading →

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A Maze In Grace

Posted on February 28, 2016 by apronheadlilly

Fumbling, rushing headlong, hanging on and pressing in path after path, and the end becomes more and more important than these endless turns and blank walls. Persevering, stumbling, and receiving grace for the task— amazing.

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Silence Meets Silence

Posted on May 12, 2014 by apronheadlilly

There is a kind of silence that nourishes the soul, allows pain and busyness and life to recede to the sharp margins, leaving space, room to breathe, room to be. But there is a kind of silence that cuts like a … Continue reading →

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Seamless

Posted on March 16, 2014 by apronheadlilly

It should be seamless—this eternal life I am living now. When this flesh is done, the Lilly that I am should gently walk into the Lilly I will be, no halting, no stumbling, a brilliant transition to everlasting, but . … Continue reading →

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A Kind of Trust

Posted on March 12, 2013 by apronheadlilly

There is in trust a kind of writing between the lines.  I trust you, but that trust expects acceptable outcomes—acceptable to me.  My blank slate of surrender has a lot of smudges around the edges—things like “Don’t let it hurt” … Continue reading →

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The waiting, the now . . .

Posted on March 12, 2012 by apronheadlilly

It’s the waiting that gets me. Always the waiting, never the now, longing for change, but change comes in the later. The past seems to hold regrets or nostalgia that trumps anything remotely real and present. It’s the waiting that … Continue reading →

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Hope and Despair

Posted on December 4, 2011 by apronheadlilly

Hope and despair, side by side, comingled like lovers, estranged but intimate— of necessity joined in a world that feeds both. Hope looks beyond to the “other”— promised, longed for. Despair looks to what is, heavy and real— the pressing … Continue reading →

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My Book of Uncommon Prayers: Idols

Posted on November 9, 2011 by apronheadlilly

Pry from my hands these little trinkets, these very important “holy” things. Break these idols that I trust in; let me know my depth of sin. Devastate me with Your nearness; fill me with Your Spirit’s blaze. In one moment, … Continue reading →

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When It’s All About Me

Posted on October 23, 2011 by apronheadlilly

I don’t think I have a split personality; but if I did, would I know it?  Maybe it’s just the neighbor’s marijuana wafting in through the swamp cooler on a hot day, or maybe I really am two people living … Continue reading →

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