A Place to Belong

Maybe community as a group doesn’t exist. Is there

a place to belong, to breathe deep without fear of regulation and restraint—

to be who I am and am becoming in safety—

knowing and being known,


Maybe community as a group doesn’t exist.

Maybe community comes in ones and twos, bits and snatches

of love and connection.

Maybe it comes in those broken times when my fear and doubt, that in some eyes would threaten the stability of all of Christendom, is rather met

with understanding and the ah-ha’s that underscore I am not alone in my loss and alienation.

Maybe community is found in the stumbling along, the leaning on, the my picking you up and the you picking me up stuff of life,

not in the largeness, and the rightness of group but

in the ones and twos,

fellowship of the weak.


“We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.” (New Living, II Cor. 4:7)

New Blog:  https://apronheadlilly.wordpress.com/

Posted in Christian, Faith, Poetry | Tagged , , , | 4 Comments

Life Changes

I have often said the loss of my first child changed my whole life—

how I look at the world, how I look at comforters, how I look at God.

My husband’s motorcycle accident and my youngest son’s car accident changed my whole life—

changed the way I hear telephone rings and wait for late arrivals.

The loss of a treasured friend changed my whole life—

changed the way I open myself up and how soon I trust.

Having an emergency appendectomy at 11 changed my whole life, as did

getting glasses and

being schooled in a one-room school by a sometimes tyrant.

But come to think of it, marriage changed my whole life, as did

my beautiful boys and my wonderful grandchildren,

my research on the Internet,

my teaching,

my art,

my photography.

My publishing and recording career changed everything.

Baking whole wheat bread and learning to juice changed my whole life, as did

beach trips and mountain winding roads and migraines and conversations over coffee and journaling and

pet dogs and planting tomatoes and bike treks and menopause and swimming laps and sunrises in the morning, sunsets in the evening, and

computers and orchids and organic vegetables and Trader Joes and Youtube

and . . .

I think I’ve come to the brilliant conclusion

that life

has changed my whole life.


Note: Don’t understand why, but I was able to post media this time when I am supposed to have used up all my space here on this blog. Hmm.  Don’t forget to check out my new blog at apronheadlilly.wordpress.com .

Posted in nature, Photography, Poetry | Tagged , , , , , , | 11 Comments


The air turns cold,


and your words contract as my probing shrivels. 

You misunderstand my questions, and I misunderstand your need.

You ignore my need to talk while I ignore your need for silence;

and so we sit pretending,

while the air turns cold.

Posted in Photography, Poetry | Tagged , , , | 6 Comments

Please check out my new blog!

I have started my new blog.  Please come along and follow me!


I know I’m pretty boring, keeping almost the same title. :)

It’s been a while since I navigated all the widgets and all, but bear with me as I fine tune the presentation.

Ah, new beginnings!

Posted in blogging, new blog, wordpress | Tagged , , | 5 Comments

New Blog Coming

Well, it appears I have no choice but to start over. I will be setting up a new one and will  invite those who care to follow me. I will post the new address here when I have it done.

See you soon.

Posted in Uncategorized | 4 Comments

Interesting ??

I just deleted a large number of early blogs and pics that were larger files, also some video. It has not changed anything. My deletions have not given me more capacity.  Sigh.

Posted in Uncategorized | 8 Comments

I’m Stuffed!

So it appears I have no more room to post, and my $20 renewals are not available to me any more.  So what do the rest of you all do?  Start a new blog?  Pay up for the bigger fees? Start deleting old blogs?  I guess free could not go on forever!

Posted in Uncategorized | 28 Comments

Weekly Photo Challenge: Blue

Originally posted on A p r o n h e a d -- Lilly:

These Joshua tree photos are so blue, you may think they are depressed.  But I think they are worshiping, arms raised, prickles and all.  Mmm, a lesson there?

Joshua tree munchkins!

View original

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Rock Sanctuaries

Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Thought for the Day: Well, a few of them!

Originally posted on A p r o n h e a d -- Lilly:

With the Internet, the social networks, and the blogosphere, we have amazing opportunities for connection and re-connection.  With all that potential for contact comes greater potential for disappointment because our expectation has risen exponentially.  So when that friend or family member who previously would have only sent a Christmas card once a year ignores our brilliant and intuitive post on Facebook, we somehow feel ignored and even rejected.

What is the solution?

Have you seen FB posts that say they’re running a test to see who actually follows their posts, and they pose some kind of crazy question, like “When was the first time you saw me brush my teeth?” And the folks whose loyalty is really in question  ignore the post, primarily because they are busy finding a cure for cancer, reading a  Harry Potter book, or in some way saving the world.  Then an irreparable rift happens or at least a good sulk.  Well, I…

View original 141 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment